i thought as the only daughter, ill be treated like a precious one. but i was wrong. ill get accused, misunderstood & being called "stupid" , "idiot" etc. As the oldest, I also did not receive any respect from my younger bros. instead, i was being "controlled" by them; they treat me as if im a piece of trash. i will always give in. whenever we go out to eat, ill just go with the flow. whenever i really want something such as bag or shoes or makeup, ill save up and use my own money. most of the branded stuffs that i owned were bought using my own money. i never ask them to buy it for me, not like my bros who always want them to buy it for them. i did that bec i dont want to be a burden to them. she keeps saying that i should just go & die. to be honest, i've thought of suicide a lot of time after hearing that a few times. but i know that's not the right way and i hv no guts to do that. now im just a girl that is deeply hurt & dont know who to rely on. keeping it all to myself.POSTED BY Muthia ON Wednesday, 3 February 2016 @ 19:46
Meeting someone and getting to know them again,
that's too much for me now
It was good at first,
but the ending is always bad
I cried so much,
I keep getting burned,
but still
I keep doing it,
this bad thing called
Love
Love is madness
POSTED BY Muthia ON Sunday, 22 February 2015 @ 06:40
I loved you
No matter
how much I sugarcoat it,
it's already in the past tense
Countless of promises
as much as the night stars,
now they're pointless,
It's over now
POSTED BY Muthia @ 06:18
Love,is the craziest thing
I've ever done
I cried so much
and I know this,
But I do this madness again
this terrible thing
Like a movie with a bad ending,
there's no happy ending,
But
always a sad twist
POSTED BY Muthia @ 06:11
what are you going
to do with my breaking heart?
what are you going
to do with the crumbling me?
all the promises
you whispered in my ear,
what are you going to do with them?
all of your words
are lies
but
I can't even get angry anymore
this was your last chance
no more forgiveness
goodbyePOSTED BY Muthia ON Monday, 5 January 2015 @ 06:29
love is not a coincidence
but destiny...
after feeling the love
you gave me,
i felt happiness
for the first time
at some point,
you become my everything
i know,
nothing lasts forever
but
i want to believe
that we won't change
no matter what comes our way,
i'll be right next to you,
i'll always be there
POSTED BY Muthia ON Thursday, 24 July 2014 @ 01:31
